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What 70,000 Won Will Get You in Busan
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Jake Roberts
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December 12, 2002
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From the looks of him, you wouldn't think there was anything interesting
about him. He was short with a pointed nose, a shaved head, and
that was about it. I asked him the usual bullshit questions you
ask when you meet someone at a foreigner bar. I asked him why he'd
come to Korea to teach English, how long he'd been in Busan, if
he had been to Seoul, and I'm still not sure how the conversation
moved from such harmless fare to where it led next-like the switch
on the railroad tracks was pulled, and we seamlessly moved in a
completely new direction-but somehow we were discussing hookers.
Suddenly he was a sexual Lonely Planet, telling us what he knew,
and then what at first sounded hypothetical became very real when
he said in an Australian accent, "You fellas want to go?"
I looked at Ricky and Ron to get a read on their reactions. We
all kind of turned a little towards the rest of the foreigner bar,
as if letting ourselves know what the alternatives were.
"Yeah, let's go. Let's do it right now!" Ricky said,
which surprised the hell out of me. He had always been against the
idea. That was it, really. Once he spoke up, something inside the
three of us snapped and we were following this small guy with a
pinched, bird-like nose out of the bar and into the street.
"Hey," I called to the guy, who was far ahead, trying
to catch us a taxi. "I never caught your name." Somehow
this information seemed important at that juncture.
I hadn't sought out prostitutes when I first came to Busan; it
never really occurred to me. It actually came from a conversation
with one of my Korean coworkers, and the conversation was more just
looking into basic human needs to be found in the city, i.e. drugs,
massages, that sort of thing. All of a sudden he was telling me
about one of the major factors of doing business in Korea: the prostitute.
The way he explained it, you took a client to a really expensive
bar where beautiful women, college students working part-time, came
over and fed you. For the right price, you can wake up the next
morning with more than a hangover.
The allure of going to a prostitute was not the sex. Okay, well,
partially the sex, but it was also the sense of adventure that came
with it, the story for afterwards. It was the one guaranteed killer
of a story, one that anyone would strain to listen to, right up
till the end. Ron seemed to silently understand my need for this
story, or at least he had his own reasons, because we had long before
decided that one night, without planning, we would look at each
other, and we would know: Now is the time. Ricky took a lot more
convincing, and I even went so far as to break it down economically,
citing the countless hundreds spent on conventional dating, as opposed
to the one time no-hassle fee of about fifty bucks. Ricky wouldn't
buy it. Yet somehow he was now our impetus. There we were, heading
in a taxi to Haeundae Beach.
I only knew of two places in Busan to find prostitutes: One was
Texas Street, where the women were tall, Russian, and had this expression
that decades of American culture had trained me to fear and abhor.
The second was in Nampo-dong, downtown. It was an area full of display
cases, store-front windows looking into rooms with red walls and
white floors. Sitting very properly, like dolls waiting to be played
with, were dozens of pretty, clean-looking girls, all dressed in
white, some playing with their phones, others waving with bright
smiles. You knew they took money for sex, but looking at them, all
you could imagine doing with one was looking through a photo album
or playing with her new puppy.
Haeundae, on the other hand, was some houses clustered together
so close that they looked like packed earth, and running down into
the darkness were walkways that could have been the cracks of Hell
itself, the ground run asunder. A red glow emitted from each of
these three winding paths, and all we could hear was outside traffic.
Silence on the paths.
Matt advised us to let him talk. These girls would try to get more
from us because we were foreigners, but unlike the "cleaner"
girls at Nampo-dong, they would actually consider sleeping with
us. Apparently lots of them were afraid of dealing with foreigners,
either because of bad experiences with soldiers, or certain assumptions
about anatomy. We chose a path, and on one side were rows of glass
doors, like a Florida room. In each was a glowing red carpet and
at least two or three girls, sitting and watching television, squatting,
doing their hair in the mirror. Some smiled and waved at us. Some
locked their doors emphatically and wouldn't look at us. The ones
who spoke to us wanted at least 70 grand. Ricky, Ron and I followed
like boys at our first high school dance, being led around to find
dates. We giggled, waved to the girls a little shyly, made jokes
to each other and laughed a little more than we would have normally.
"Hey Matt," I said, interrupting negotiations at one
point, "If I showed you a picture of my mother, could you find
something similar?" And at that instant it occurred to me,
That was pretty funny. Shit, I'm not drunk enough! It was true.
I was close to sober, of all things. Soberly visiting a hooker.
We continued down the path, following Matt, letting him talk to
prostitutes for us as though we were there for him. After walking
the entire area, which wasn't very large, we came upon this one
girl that made us all stop and for once really consider what we
were doing there.
She looked like she stepped out of a video game. She was small,
shorter than me, petite, wearing all white. Her shirt was cut at
the midriff, and she had a spectacularly defined stomach. She wore
a short white miniskirt, and the kicker, the absolute sell for all
of us, were these white leg-warmer things that came up to her knees,
and covered her feet. She could have been floating. We stared for
a few good beats, and even Ricky seemed interested. Matt grew excited
at our excitement, and went up to bargain. One hundred grand was
her asking price, and for once I didn't feel like we were being
overcharged. Still, none of us had that much money. Matt tried everything
he could. He even told her we had small penises. Nothing would work.
She went down as far as 80 grand, which was enough reason for us
to give in to our fears and say no. We walked around a while longer,
looking for someone else, but then we came back, and we knew she
would be the one. She called to us, and we were about to go back
to haggle some more when I pulled Ricky and Ron aside for a brief
huddle.
"Before we dick around with this girl, we have to be sure
we're going to do this," I said.
Ron shook his head and rubbed his eyes. "I don't know, man.
Maybe another night. I'm not feeling up to it tonight."
I looked to Ricky. "I don't think I can do this!" he
said in a voice that sounded more primal than rational. It was the
first time I had ever seen real fear behind his eyes.
"Okay," I said, feeling a little better. "We checked
it out tonight. No loss. It was an experience, so now we know for
next time."
"She'll do it for 70, guys!" Matt suddenly called out,
and we looked over. He was waving me over, and the girl was waving
at me. I went over as the representative.
"Yeah, I don't think we can do it tonight," I said, staring
at the girl, wondering if she understood anything of what I was
saying. "Thanks, but it doesn't look like it."
"Okay, but 70 is a good price for a girl like this. I think
that's as low as she'll go. I'd take it, man."
"Thanks anyway," I said, and walked back over to the
guys. They were standing a lot closer together when I came over,
and Ricky had a smile on his face.
"We'll both pay 30 thousand together for you to do it,"
Ricky said, and I felt the cold sting of betrayal, but also a sort
of call to arms. It was a challenge, and I've never wanted to back
away from one before, especially out of fear. It was my story, being
offered up to me, and at a discount. I looked at them, then at Matt,
then finally the girl.
"No worries," Matt said.
I walked into the open door, "When Johnny Comes Marching
Home" playing in my head. It was now a mission, and I felt
like a sort of pioneer. I entered a small hallway, open doors all
along. The girl was standing by one of them, smiling.
I took off my shoes before entering the room, like a restaurant,
I thought. The room was only large enough to fit a bed, a dresser,
a vanity, and a mirror. It reminded me of a girl's room in her parents'
house. The colors were all white with pink fringe, and I looked
around for stuffed animals, but there were none. On the dresser
was a framed collage, various pictures of Nick Carter, from the
Backstreet Boys, and Justin Timberlake, from 'N Sync, with the overlapping
caption: Nick or Justin? She came up to me and held her hand out.
I dug into my wallet and took out 7 ten thousand won bills, leaving
only one ten left. She took it and counted it, then said, "Pal
man chun" and held up eight fingers.
"Chil," I said, holding up seven fingers. Suddenly I
had forgotten completely where I was and was arguing like she was
charging me too much for fruit. She said eighty thousand over and
over a few times, and even pushed me like she was throwing a tantrum,
but I went for my jacket, and then she said okay okay and took my
money and began making a pouting face, then left the room. I sat
on the bed and stared ahead, wondering: Nick or Justin?
She came back and motioned for me to get undressed. She undressed
as well, and I thought, Damn! The leg warmers!. I undressed slowly,
and was still standing around in my boxers trying to find a pocket
to put my watch in when she suddenly yanked down my boxers and giggled
like it was a sleepover. My boxers were still around my ankles while
she began to fondle me. Soon she took me into her mouth, saying,
"Good service. Good service," the only real English words
I had heard from her so far.
I stared down at her while she did it, not feeling inside my body,
but rather like I was watching one of those porns back in America,
then I looked at the mirror to my right, and saw a face that wasn't
mine. He was someone unshaven, wild-eyed, cold and ugly-looking.
His stomach was sticking out too much, I thought. In the reflection
I could see the vanity, and Justin and Nick, still waiting for my
answer.
She put a condom on me, took out a tube of KY jelly, which I pretended
not to notice, and rubbed it into her crotch. Then she laid me down
and got on top. I reached up to fondle her breasts and suddenly
she rocked backwards and I was sitting upright. It felt like we
were play-wrestling for a second, or maybe see-sawing. She pushed
my hands away from her breasts and made a motion with her own hands,
showing me how I should touch them. I looked at her, hurt at the
idea that she thought I was being too rough with her, but we continued.
I was on top of her, bracing myself against one of her legs, my
face by hers, but turned away. I just held on to the bed and rocked
back and forth. My nose became congested, and to my horror, I began
to snort loudly, almost grunting, as I thrust. She began to moan,
but I knew nothing had happened for her. I was already done, and
was trying to stay inside longer, like the reluctant kid who wants
a second ride on the roller coaster. When I moved away from her
she cleaned up tidily, then used a small damp towel to clean me-again,
like a restaurant-and she dressed as quickly as she had undressed
and I was alone. The lights were on again, and I was left to dress
and stare once more at the collage.
When I left, I thanked her using the polite form of the Korean
and found Ricky, Ron, and Matt sitting around outside, drinking
soju out of Dixie cups. We decided to walk over to the Paradise
Hotel Casino for more alcohol, where I learned for the first time
how to bet on roulette. I won twenty thousand won from that last
ten in my wallet.
On the way home, we walked around in the light of seven o'clock
in the morning, making jokes about AIDS and herpes and syphilis
and countless other diseases they said I now harbored in my post-coital
state. That, more than the condom, was my protection. I wrapped
myself in laughter like you're told to do to the boogieman when
he's bothering you at night. Just laugh at that old creep, laugh
and he can't ever touch you. So we all laughed. I would need some
backup against so many boogiemen.
The agreement made the next day at McDonalds was simple. Only a
select few were to know. No girls, only extremely close friends.
It was in the vault, though I secretly wondered how long it would
be before I unleashed it and said, "Fuck it, I don't care what
you think of me." At school, the next day, I sent an email
to some old college friends, telling them the story and giving them
the same coda, that this was strictly between us. In a way that's
where it ended, between us men. I taught my students, flirted with
the little girls who have a crush on me, and walked around without
a thought about whether there was some inconsistency in being a
teacher, a sensitive, caring human being, while also being a whoremonger.
It was only in the shower that I felt like I wasn't going to come
out clean. Yes, showers made me feel dirtier in their ineffectiveness.
By Tuesday I was completely over it, eager, in fact, to see the
first responses to my story. There was only one response in my inbox,
and the subject read, "That was stupid," and then it went
on to point out that I hadn't worn a condom when she went down on
me, listing the potential diseases I could have been carrying that
very minute. My stomach bottomed out and threatened to take out
the rest of the scaffolding. I couldn't move.
As discreetly as I could at work, I pulled Ricky aside to freak
out privately, but I should have known where that would lead.
"Hey, don't worry," he said, but I persisted, telling
him I was beginning to feel sick about the whole thing, and still
I didn't want to regret it. I wanted him to tell me not to regret
it, but all he said was, "Look, we knew the risks before we
went into it. Maybe you should learn that sometimes it's better
to know when not to experience something."
Christ! I thought, Of all the times, I don't need a lesson now,
and I was granted the relative asylum of my own mind. I thought
about my friends, my brother, my parents, a wife, a daughter, people
existing and imaginary, how I would tell them the very same story.
What would they say in response? Would I get some universal pat
on the back? Looks of envy and awe at my worldliness? What could
I really expect?
I'm not very good at keeping my face from expressing my emotions,
so Ricky began telling me I'm probably fine, that I'm still the
same person I always was, but he couldn't understand why I couldn't
stand still and yet wanted to lay down somewhere and never move
again. It wasn't that the sex was empty. God, no. What did I get
for seventy thousand won? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.
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